I think ive grown a few wrinkles on my forehead from trying my best to control my anger with herman. The kid sure knows how to push the right button. This is why I dont tutor my own siblings. Monitor and supervise yes. Tutor...nah ah ah. I cant do it. I dont noe why...maybe its because I know them..like their style and all and it just wont happen you know. I hope Im not the only one who have this 'syndrome' . Thats because if you look it from another angle, its kinda irresponsible of me..sigh....
What is relativity. In laymans term, "when you are in a boring lecture, time seems to pass by very slowly.However when you are with the gal that you like, it seems to pass by very fast." That is relativity. Time was passing by very fast in the day. Busy running errands and entertaining guests.
They say that chivalry is dead. Is love dead as well? Well right now, it seems to me that it is. Everyones having problems in their relationships, some on the verge of breaking up, others ending what most people would call a happy ever after relationship. If Marriages can break apart, what more relationships huh. Its just so sad. Oh damn. This is so uncool. Ok emo moment pause here.
Yesterday, a friend told me that I am sensitive..so sensitive that i am sensitive of her being sensitive (haha). I thought about it...sad to say I think shes right. Then I went on a full rewind...thinking of how and why im like this.
Childhood
I was alone most of the time when I was young. I was the only child for 10 years. In this time, I was my mums company during the day. And mum being like other normal housewives will watch soap dramas and hindustan. Since there was only one TV then...I was forced to watch it. (cos i wasnt allowed to go down and play). All this thing about being nice...being helpful and all those naive virtues just seeped in i guess. Cos I remember reflecting upon myself after each episode...and i did actually talk to myself then (err weird..i noe). We always want to be the hero I guess. So I copied the hero. Not the valient brave hero from actionville..but those thats from across the bridge..from niceville. That explains alot I guess.
As much as possible I try to suppress this childhood naiveness of mine. I did lots of things. Mostly during my NS days. But that, is for another time. ;)
I fed this blog to my multiply...so for those who read this post from multiply, I dont blog through there. so sometimes, theres a disruption in format or smthing. But thats not the point. I was looking at all the other blog posts of my contacts. Strangely..I was reluctant to read them. Its like I dont want to know...cos its personal. I do know that what I write here..some personal, might be exploited or such. People might view me differently and such. Thats why I try my best not to expose to much of ME hehehe. I want something of me left....left for that someone whom ive yet to know. Its always good to have some mystery aint it ;)
Shit..im starting to sound like a fag. Ok this is not going to be a habit. Lets unpause this still moment. Let reality sets in again......
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