10.30.2007



Everything


Ive not been blogging for some time now. Busy with things in life...like exams and shit. Anyways...its 2 weeks to exams...PANIC BUTTON (pressing repeatedly).

My personal life have been the same...nothing much. Ive found out what needs to be done though...and its to move on. 'Thank you so much for rectifying the problem.'

In my midst of staying emotionally detatched, I see ppl who cant wait to leap to another..in a matter of 3 months. One happened to be somone I used to date. We broke up around the same time. I asked her, how come you are back in one? ( cos she said shes bz and stuff...so its hard to have a relationship..(what crap) )She replied, oh he really cares for me. Hmmm

Well personnally, I think its a rebound. I mean...for gals espeacially (PS this is not the first time this happened to her), when guys know that you just broke up, they will step in and play their game. They will be the solutions to all your problems..and of cause..caring and pampering you in the process. In relation to the break up, of cause he will seem like an answer.(She found out the prev bf was a total jerk). Anyways....gals on rebounds are easy targets for guys...so be weary ok.

To each his (or her in this matter) his(her) own.

Ive been goin on raya outings.....two weeks of em, one with my ns buddies(first half) and the MS seniors (2nd half). It was weird being the only single onewhen being with my NS mates. You know..they all had partners and stuffs. Oh well..haha...life goes on.

The recent one was this past weekend. Was invited by Zan to join his exco for jalan raya. Thanx bro. Its was a memorable experience. We also haf bro Musa and Abdullah..two exchange students from French and Canada respectively. On the way to Liyanas house, we saw a 'free show'. a couple fighting...haha cool.

The visit to Liyanas house was a blessing in disguise. I learned something that day...somthing that id keep to myself.

(256) Allah is the Protector of those who have faith: from the depths of darkness, He will lead them forth into light. Of those who reject faith the patrons are the Evil Ones: from light they will lead them forth into the depths of darkness. They will be companions of the fire, to dwell therein (for ever)- Al Baqarah.

Anyways...I was browsing through U tube for the unplug version of everlong by foo fighters. I stumbled along something intresting. Its this fanwor k for "one tree hill"
They look like a very sweet couple...acting out stages in our life that we can relate too.
I find it meaningful in a way.

The back ground is Everytime by Lifehouse.....enjoy,




Find Me HereSpeak To Me
I want to feel youI need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.
You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Cause you're all I want,
You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.
And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?


can`t you even see through me? `` Tuesday, October 30, 2007

10.24.2007



Football

Truth be told...I am a 'slowdancer'

Steady, reliable, and cradling her tenderly. Take a deep breath, and let it out real easy...you are The Slow Dancer

Your focus is love, not sex, and for your age, you have average experience. But you're a great, thoughtful guy, and your love life improves every year. There's also a powerful elimination process working in your favor: most Playboy types get stuck raising unwanted kids before you even begin settling down. The women left over will be hot and yours. Your ideal woman is someone intimate, intelligent, and very supportive.

While you're not exactly the life of the party, you do thrive in small groups of smart people. Your circle of friends is extra tight and it's HIGHLY likely they're just like you. You appreciate symmetry in relationships.


Why do I indulge myself in this kinda things


Anyways....I learn a powerful lesson today.....by someone successful


Life my dear friend is like a football match. In the first half of it, you have to work very hard, increase the tempo, do nothing except for scoring goals. There will be a half time.During this time, you have to re access your strategy, especially for the 2nd half. You are more tired by then, with not much stamina left, you have to play a different ball game.


Retire by 43....thats what I want.


However in most games, Its important to have a game plan. Now is the time for you to do so.


Wise words indeed. Thank you sir.







can`t you even see through me? `` Wednesday, October 24, 2007

10.22.2007



The Final Countdown


Today I called in sick. Sick because I cant get out of bed due to an irritating headache, those kind that makes you want bang yourhead against the wall, so as to distract urself from the throbbing pain. I have a quiz today. 20%.

I took MC.

Normally, we are eligible to have a make up quiz because its is a legitimate reason. However, when I emailed the prof for a make up. He said "it is ok."

What? excuse me? did he hear me correctly?

So I emailed him again. and he replied " ur exam take 100%"

Freaking shit. I dunno if thats good or bad. Crappy lousy lazy bugger. Ok im furious and im really mad. The first and only time I take MC in my 4 yrs of education and I have to get this kinda treatment. Its ok yanz..move on...things happen.....

Things happen.....I hope its for the better..I hope

You know the saying "action speaks louder than words". well it kept lingering in my mind....In fact another saying also kept lingering in my mind " Kerana nila setitik, susu sebelange rosak" meaning due to one incident, all the good things youve done in the past is voided. Why? because its easier to see one's mistake than to accept his deeds.

No matter what Ive done, It wouldnt matter. I get it now.

Only time will tell all...and only time will heal all wounds.

Maybe im not ready for this....as much as I think I am. But one things sure. I did come out a better person and im happy for that :)

To realise your strength and weakness....I paid a hefty price for it..
Is it worth it?

I am my worst enemy....so buck up dude.....Uve got a long way to go....a few more months....and InsyaAllah....Ud do fine....

I should stop regretting.
Breathe in......


can`t you even see through me? `` Monday, October 22, 2007

10.17.2007



Farewell









The time is near my dear friend. You will be going far away. We are going to miss you so much. Your kindness will we remember always, your joy and laughter will always linger in our mind. As you have left some words for us, Id like to return the favour. You are a great friend Soff. I will always appreciate those times you were there for me. I really do. Thanks for the listening ear aight..and also for tolerating me at times.HAHA...

Have a safe journey. Enjoy your stay there and dont worry bout things back home aight. We will make sure nothing change since the day u left....well nothing much that is.. Osh might br growing some hair, Kat might get attatched and me I might grow a goatie..Hahaha...


Take care friend
We love you 'mummy'

:)

Yanto F6














We had a 'Raya Gathering cum bday celebration for the October babies, Ierfan and Soffz. HAPPY BDAY U GUYS!



Anyways...I had a deep talk with Osh.......hey....im not alone in this.

To those who are thinking about breaking up, Id say dont give up just yet

Like what me and Osh agreed on, the saying "you treasure things more when you lose em" is so true

Well..its how you deal with it and move on with life.

So if there is still a spark of hope, id say hold on yah


Shit like this happens all the time. [DAMN]





To infinity and beyond



can`t you even see through me? `` Wednesday, October 17, 2007

10.14.2007



Hope





"There is no god but YOU.I was indeed wrong"


[Al-Anbiyaa: 21:87]



"So the fact is that along with every hardship there is also ease. Indeed, with every hardship there is also ease!"


[94:5-6]


We really learn hard after we fall dont we?


Anyways....I thank God for opening up my mind to things. Thank him for giving me the oppourtunity to gain knowledge, to know myself better, to realise my strength and weakness, before im ready for anything. Ive gotten to the habit of reading nowadays. Reading spiritual texts made me realise how similar they are to those motivational writers as well as self-help authors like Dale Carnegie.


Ive learnt to be more of an realist...instead of an idealist. Ideals are ok...but you cannot change people to suit them. Its easier to change yourself than to change others. Knowing what I want has breathe in a new meaning. I just have to be patient.


"Those who truly persevere will truly receive a reward without measure"


[39.10]



In the light of Shawal, I would like to sincerely apologise to those whom I might hurt or done malice upon, either intentionally or not, physically or by thought. If ive done you wrong, do tell me and together we wll reflect and learn. Life is too short...too short.


Eid Mubarak



Ive stumbled upon some intresting materials


As a guy, in my opinion, I find it earnest and sincere.


1. Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than ALOT OF GUYS..you're a HOE) (Also this one, i'll change if people want me to, people have different life styles)


2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.


3... Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.


4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.NEW*


5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile when there attracted to them


6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.


7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.


8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.


9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.


10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.


11. Guys get jealous easily.


12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.


13. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.


14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.


15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.


16. Girls are guys' weaknesses.


17. Guys are very open about themselves.


18. It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.


19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.


20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.


21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.


22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.23. Guys will brag about anything.


24. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.


25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.


26. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.


27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.


28. Try to be as straightforward as possible.


29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he'stoo-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.


30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.


31. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.


32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.


33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.


34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.


35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.


36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."


37. Guys don't really have final decisions.


38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.


39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.


40. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.


42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.


43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.


44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.


45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.


47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.


48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.


49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.


50. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.


51. Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.


52. We don't like girls who are too skinny.


53. We love it when girls talk about there ass.


54. Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy ...like wheather it's a one time deal or not ....


55. Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticable tell them about yours...


56. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually.


57. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..


58. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...


59. Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.


60. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.



ps: Tho those who have trouble in relationships or keeps failing in one, Who cant seem to find the perfect one. Hope this will help.





can`t you even see through me? `` Sunday, October 14, 2007

10.11.2007



Happy Times


Its 3 am in the morning and I still cant sleep. The coffee I had earlier must have kicked in. Smart move? Well if you want to have energy to stay up till midnight to finish up a stupid report in school and also drive safely back home, then I guess you dont have much of a choice.

Ive not been blogging for quite a while....been very busy lately. Busy with my endless reports which keeps piling up and also busy with settling my own personal issues. "You are your greatest enemy" That quote keeps poping in my mind lately. Im really getting spiritual about all this stuff im facing lately. Why things happen...Why they are as such and why am I faced with all this now, during my final year. I need to concentrate..I seriously do..but its just too hard. Getting more in tuned with my spiritual self kinda help me from getting into more trouble lately. I have got to stay positive and stop thinking about why things have to happen. Stay strong and move on. Theres no point thinking about improving things when its only me who wants it.

If this is a test from HIM, then I will accept it.

I realise alot of things in this 3 months. Realising things about myself and realising how to control my emotions better. My only regret is to not realise things earlier. If I did, maybe the futute might have been different. Well as they say, to attain true happiness, you have to go through pain and hardships. Thats where you sincerely grow and mature. Im not perfect, that I know..and accepting my flaws and admitting them is the only REAL thing that I hold on to. To be true to myself

I can say that im a different person in comparison to what I was before. Whatever it is, I now know what I must do

Memories can be painful at times...but some are what you hold on too to keep you going. I just want to smile again...as sincere as a smile can be.







The last family holiday....a moment of bliss and happiness


can`t you even see through me? `` Thursday, October 11, 2007