SUCKY WEEKEND
This week is sucky for many reasons. One, Myl aptop was down because the charger was not working. So applying my engineering trouble shooting skills (hahaha) I manage to conclude that the fuse was blown ( too bad I didnt have an multimeimeter..if not id use it to prove this fact. True enough I bought a fuse today and walah...its working like a charm.
Ive met new friends recently....and somehow....I dunno...things happen. God is great.
"It doesnt matter if its one car or two...it not a big deal...but to know what a man is made off, thats something"
I dont like to test people...but somtimes..they are just asking for it. To know who is true and sincere. If you want to test me....well its up to...but what you see so far of me...that is who I am. Im not one who knows how to play with words or efficient in fooling around with matters of the heart. As for now....From what has happened...I dunno what to think. I leave this to God. What I do know is that....I am dissapointed. I know it takes time to understand a person...maybe this is it...or maybe this is not. I dunno anything right now. I think id dissapear for a while.
Osh stayed with me the whole saturday night after practice. We chilled by the reservoir over at Teban. Discussing about problems and issues (mostly mine)....and at the same time argueing that theres no overgrown grass growing till above the water...its just an optical illusion...how light reflects and diffract at times..I noe I give stupid comments at times to him...but im dead serious bro..its the refraction of light above the uneven water surface. He even missed the Man U and Aresenal match....untuk members.Ive learnt that its better to discuss your problems with peole close to you....to get feedbacks....to have different perspectives..cos somethings are just too big to be handled alone. He treated me to Boonlay Power Nasi Lemak after that... Hes been a great friend lately. And I appreciate that.
Appreciaition...sometimes people just dunno what it means.
Ive made up my mind at this point. Ini bukan cakap habis. Im saying at this point. Id like my life to go back to the way it used to. And Im happy. My phone was flooded with calls and messages that night. Neleesh was having his own set of problems. Sorry I cant be there for you bro. I cant even be there for myself. Ezran, Sorry for cancelling the outing, Things happen bro. And Haseena, You need to get sleep. HAHAHA
Its time to chuck things aside Yan.Just wait for the right time to open it up again.
And I thought I understand gals....hahaha...maybe what they say Is true.....Men just wont understand. Id say....talk it out and be practical. We are not mind readers. We only can tell things to a certain extent.
Men should be the practical ones. The not so practical ones....those who believes in all the emo crap (like myself). This rare breed....are just not meant to be that lucky.
Dianah messaged.....shes been rather persistant. As a friendly gesture, I agreed to meet up, provided that her bro comes along. And we did...did some catching up. Met the mum....chatted with her from underneath the block..hahaha...its nice to meet back old familiar faces.
It seems like she has changed as well. Good for her. We are strictly friends.....and by the way...I need to meet her for ciggs...I ran out. hahaha. Oh....yeah her current ex Surin dropped by as well. Nice chap.....she even have the cheek to say that, yey now two of my exes are here. I replied cheekilly to Surin...yeah she likes doing this...collecting exs.
I realised that Ive changed alot....besides physically....I think that right now...im having alot of female friends. Its strictly platonic. Gals are good in the sense that some of their opinions are different from the kinda response guys gives (duh). So do not think that im a player or anything. I need to say this once and for all.
Life is good for now. I love every minute of it.
I am a patient man.Dont ever test me beyond the limits.....you wont want to see the devil in me.
Hes going...hes going...hes.....
*poof*
ggaaaannnnnnn
can`t you even see through me? `` Sunday, February 17, 2008
