AWAKE
Today was a fruitful day. Iskandar and me managed to get the control console on the electric scooter almost done to perfection. It was a tough call though..to travel all the way to TP. I slept throughout the whole journey..ignoring all the eyes staring at me. I couldnt care less. One thing I hate though..is the backache I have for sitting awkwardly while sleeping for almost an hour. Its terrible. Anyways....a Siti Aishah called....I was hesitating before I picked up the call....Who is this gal? Apparently, shes with Mendaki. I have a job this Saturday! They remembered me! hahaha
Alhamdulilah....like they say...rezki ada kat mana2 dan bila2 dengan kehendakNYA. Couldnt come at a better timing. Im in need of cash.
Neelesh was asking me once....Principles or Budget. I chose principle. No matter how in need I am of cash, Id never forsake my principles for it. Money comes and goes. The same cannot be applied to your beliefs, your principles...or what defines you. Its sad to know what some would do for money....not knowing that it might be a test. Its true to an extent...money can buy anything.
Accompanying my way to TAPAC was my consus. I watched this show 'awake'. It starred Christian Haydenson (I hope I got his name right) and Jessica ALBA! Ive not heard about the show before...sadly...cos it was a great one. After watching the movie, I found myself relating to the pesona of the main character. Clayton (christian). Apart from his goodlooks, wealth and charm in that movie, we share something in common. We trust people easily...and out of our generosity...we somtimes find ourselves in trouble. He was betrayed by those he trust...and love...and at the end of the day...the only person that stood by him...was his family...his only family...his Mum.
One who would give her life for him.
"What was it Sam..there were so many details.....What was I looking at? Was it you that I am looking at? I hope you are happy Sam..you'll get what you deserve" Sam..his lover..betrayed him....to the MAX.
I love that line from that movie.
Im a muslim....however, I do believe in karma as well. What goes around comes around.
Women are trouble. For me at least....maybe cos ive yet to find one that really understand me yet, often finding myself taken advantage of. Well I would appreciate it if they dont take me for a fool, for I am not. Everythings a test. 'Diam tidak bererti ku marah...tidak bererti ku kalah'
Im a simple guy...an honest guy. I believe that something good will happen. They say good guys finish last. Im not saying im good.....but im not bad either.
Well...I wondered around Tanjong Pager aimlessly....was there at 630. SB was not there yet....He was suppose to be there....It was nearing maghrib...So I had to go to the mosque nearby to rush for Asar.It was peaceful...I dont noe why.but I felt peace...after weeks of turmoil.
SB wants me to go to the AGM at TAPAC representing kemuning. I met new faces at the meeting. Professionals fom different fields....coming together in the name of art. Living their life with passion...with a reason.
A meeting that would normally take an hour dragged for 3 hours.
I was hungry and tired...but looking at the way these people converse, Address issues and debate ,arouse my attention. It was fun...a worthwhile experience.
As usual, I had to report to SB about the meeting. Soon it was teatime with SB. A sharing of wisdom anf valuable experience.
I was told that as muslims...we should always hope....in any situation....we must hope. So that we can progress in this life in optimism....and its a counter for suicide. Doa...is a form of hope. An autosuggestion. I am afraid to hope...cos im afraid of getting dissapointed. I think in this sense....spritually..I must learn to cope with this.
'jangan menzalimi diri sendiri' I think I am lately. This has got to stop someday.
Im feeling the effects.
La illa hailla anta subahanaka ini kuntum minal zolimin.
May god protect as all.
can`t you even see through me? `` Friday, February 29, 2008
