*Music, babes and what nots*

Im here again, it has been yet again a hectic weekend but hey...whats new.

Ok, highlights for the week, I met Soff online(webcam)!! She looked damn happy and I am so envious of her. Its always a dream for me to visit Japan. Shes living there for 2 years ! Anyways, we had a long talk and I had the opportunity to witness her cooking skills on real time. She was cooking Spaghetti . It was awesome. Gals who can cook RAWKS. (its rare ok)

Lately, Ive been thinking (yeah wats new yanz). Ok, its this pursuit of HappYness. Sometimes we think that we are happy, but we are just being delusional. We think that we are right, but in fact, we are afraid to acknowledge the truth. We want to believe that we are all that, but in fact we are no where near. We think that we are living in reality. But its actually a sad falsehood that we actually choose to conform to.

We are afraid of making choices, and we are are clouded with regret whenever a choice is made ( We actually do in one way or another, its just better to believe that we dont).

Its like music to the ears.....nice to hear and all...however if we listen carefully, what we actually hear is the voice of the songwriter and not of the singer. melodies masks the pain. To feel pain, we have to go through it. I believe i have my fair share of that.

The falsehood of our believe is sometimes beneficial to us. like it gives as motivation, to propell us further. Like to believe that we are happy, will bury all those sorrow and keep us up and running. However, if we over do it, we tend to lose touch of wats real, and wat we want to believe is real. There have to be a time to face all these lies.

Question is, are we ready for it.

You are your worst enemy.

So are you living in reality? are you real in the first place?

Go figure.

This is me yanto signing off, reminding you incase you forget, of the subtle things in life that you tend to overlook.