11.02.2007
Happilly Ever After
Lately, some of my friends are already getting married, some engaged, some still in their endless romance. And me? Here I am, back to where I was...alone.
Experience taught me a great deal, some I take with a pinch of salt, some I still have fear in...But most importantly, it had taught me lessons which I cherish for life. Ive seen a new shed of light. Im embracing this new found wisdom.
Marriage is something that most of us would want to end up in. To have someone who loves you more than themselves, to know that you can count on that person, to feel safe and wanted. However, lately, the idea of a sacred and hapilly ever after marriage seemed rather unrealistic. There are stories of wives cheating behind their husbands and vice versa, divorces and so on. A friend related a story of a doting wife and mother...who slips into the car of another man to offer him a BJ. WTH?!
I am a believer of Marriage. I would want to have and lead a family of my own, full of love and respect, the kind that I am brought up in. However, Im constantly having this fear...that such dreadful things mentioned earlier might befall upon me (Nauzubillah).
On my part, Im sure that id commit...but the same doesnt go both ways. I worry constantly if ive made the right choice, to know that my future partner is someone I can trust, and not go flirting around. Ive been cheated before by one of my 'partners'...and I do not want to be there again. Thank God it ended. For it could have been worst.
I hope shes happy where she is now.
Well...its kinda weird to be thinking about this. I mean I wouldnt want to But, i think its about time I question myself about this things. Im 25 for crying out loud.
Ive had my share of mistakes, maybe these insecurities got to the better of me. I dont blame anyone for this....this are issues I need to deal with....
May god shower me with his mercy and blessings.
(I hate talking about this kinda things!!)
can`t you even see through me? `` Friday, November 02, 2007
