10.11.2007
Happy Times
Its 3 am in the morning and I still cant sleep. The coffee I had earlier must have kicked in. Smart move? Well if you want to have energy to stay up till midnight to finish up a stupid report in school and also drive safely back home, then I guess you dont have much of a choice.
Ive not been blogging for quite a while....been very busy lately. Busy with my endless reports which keeps piling up and also busy with settling my own personal issues. "You are your greatest enemy" That quote keeps poping in my mind lately. Im really getting spiritual about all this stuff im facing lately. Why things happen...Why they are as such and why am I faced with all this now, during my final year. I need to concentrate..I seriously do..but its just too hard. Getting more in tuned with my spiritual self kinda help me from getting into more trouble lately. I have got to stay positive and stop thinking about why things have to happen. Stay strong and move on. Theres no point thinking about improving things when its only me who wants it.
If this is a test from HIM, then I will accept it.
I realise alot of things in this 3 months. Realising things about myself and realising how to control my emotions better. My only regret is to not realise things earlier. If I did, maybe the futute might have been different. Well as they say, to attain true happiness, you have to go through pain and hardships. Thats where you sincerely grow and mature. Im not perfect, that I know..and accepting my flaws and admitting them is the only REAL thing that I hold on to. To be true to myself
I can say that im a different person in comparison to what I was before. Whatever it is, I now know what I must do
Memories can be painful at times...but some are what you hold on too to keep you going. I just want to smile again...as sincere as a smile can be.
The last family holiday....a moment of bliss and happiness
can`t you even see through me? `` Thursday, October 11, 2007
