Society Amuses me
Im facing collateral damage soon. A week full of Quizes (tests) and exams around the corner. I go through this phase every year, every semester in fact. If you see me cursing the institution or MOE, then you know it has begun.
I used to think that life was already planned out for me. I go through stages in my life, passed the tests and proceed on to the next stage. However, Its been a while since im trapped in this stage im currently in. I cant seem to progress. And honestly, its getting tiring. Minus the religious purpose in this life. I know that my reason here is to leave a legacy. One that will bring forward my name and that of my forefathers. Its amazing how ive come to this. Is it really mine? Or am I being influenced. Society have somehow set certain guidelines for us. Guidelines not rules, which are so vague and unfirm. Whats right and wrong may be the creation of one single mind. A mind that we are to trust. However, History have a way of revealing things. even history itself is a pact of lies in favor or those in power. So what is it that we based our lives on. Luckily for me, I have the Quran. The way of life. However even muslims do not seem to follow whats given to them. They either do less or do more.
Ok, lets not touch on religion. Even before we were born, our lives are already mapped out. Have you considered that? "I want my son to be a lawyer" " I want my son to be an acountant" "I want my daughter to go to RGS" etc etc. This realy make you feel owned dont you. As in theres a tag at the back of your feet saying "property of so and so. I agree that to a certain degree, it is appropiate cos kids are dumb. They think that they know the world. In reality, they only see 'their' world and not the reality as we see it. The path stops after 10 years of education. From there on, its time for the child to carve his own future. So as parents, pray hard that when that time comes, you have already equipt the child with the neccessary tools. Theres a difference from mapping the road, and helping to map the road, If you have raised the child well, they will occasionally go back to you, to keep tabs on whether they are doing good. If not, they will be drifting....and when you see that, you know that youve failed and have to reel him/her back in. Its not easy...the reeling...you might even break ur line. Thats where patience sets in. ( The things I observe from fishing).
As I sat at the corner of Orchard road a while back, looking at all these strangers walking along, Each with their own story to tell, I wish I can just pick one out and get to know him/her. Its like watching a movie...only that this time, its real. Life is lonely.I feel like that often. And seriously, I believed that life was all about me. It might sound selfish but to an extent its true. Im going to answer for everything, who would want to watch my back? However, certain experience I go through in life taught me that im not. Even if i am as such physically, emotionally and internally im not. We cannot function alone. We need each other. "Hidup bermasyarakat". Amazingly, The Army taught me an important lesson in this. "its about the person next to you". Sounds familiar? It was from BLACK HAWK DOWN. Eric Bana said that to the ranger before going back into the battle zone after moments from leaving it . If we only think about ourselves, life will be shallow wouldnt it. However, if we can touch the lives of others, then its a sea of possibilities. We are lonely, unless we have bonds. Thats what tells us we are alive. To hear our name mention from the tongues of others, to have our body held by others, to have our heart touched by others and ou mind inspired by others. How so can we say we are alone. An orphan who lives alone and has no other human to talk too. He is alone. However, the greatest bond of all...is that of you and the creator. Once you get that..then you will never be alone.
There is no right or wrong. Everyone have their own defination of right and wrong. Common sense to one may not me common sense to another. Experience and knowledge that we have varies from one individual to another. The only conclusion, there is none. We are capable of compassion. Our souls are pure, its untouched by the rubbish we get from this world. So touch your heart, not your mind, your heart...let your soul ans you....and you know if its the best thing to do. The best thing to do may not always be the right one. and vice versa. But faith is a great tool isnt it? Try taking the left path for a change...even if its against social norms. However, keep track of your path..so that when you get lost, you know your way back.
"Live free, Die hard, Bad boys for life...."
Take A Look Around
All the teachin' in da world today All the little girls fillin' up da world today When the good comes to bad, the bad comes to good But I'm a live my life like i should Now da critics wanna hit it This hit? How we did it, just because they don't get it But I'll stay fitted, new era commited Now this red cap gets a rap from these critics But do we always gotta cry Do we always gotta live inside a lie Life's just a blast cuz its movin' really fast So ya better stay on top or life'll kick you in the ass Follow me into a solo Remember that, kid, so whatcha wanna do And where ya gonna run when your stari'n down the cable of my mic Pointed at yo grill like a gun Limp Bizkit is rockin' the set It's like russian roulette when you're placin' your bet So don't be upset when you're broke and you're done Cuz I'm a be the one till I jet I know why you wanna hate me Cuz hate is all the world has even seen lately And now you wanna hate me Cuz hate is all the world has even seen lately Does anybody really know the secret Or the combination for this life and where they keep it It's kinda sad when you don't know the meaning But everything happens for a reason I don't even know what i should say Cuz I'm an idiot, a loser A microphone abuser I analyze every second I exist Beatin' up my mind every second with my fist And everybody wanna run Everybody wanna hide from da gun You can dig a rat through this life if you want But you can't dig the edge off a knife (no sir) And now you want your money back But you're denied, cuz your brain's fried from the sack And there aint nothin' i could do Cuz life is a lesson, you'll learn it when you're through I know why you wanna hate me Cuz hate is all the world has even seen lately And now you wanna hate me Cuz hate is all the world has even seen lately Now... I... know... why (now I know why you wanna hate me) I know why you wanna hate me Cuz hate is all the world has even seen lately And now you wanna hate me Cuz hate is all the world has even seen lately
can`t you even see through me? `` Wednesday, September 26, 2007
