"There's nowhere to run
I have no place to go
Surrender my heart' body and soul
How can it be you're asking me to feel the things you never show

I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say
I would do it all again
Just want you to know

I try to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby, it's written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

If you can save these tears from crying
Touch these hands that can't stop shaking
Hear my heart that's barely beating
You will see a different man
But baby here I am"

- unknown

'Sometimes in life, you will get into something called a phase. Whereby it messes you up and starts taking you to places unimaginable. Things and ideas foreign to you will somehow be similar...and worst of all if there is a poor level of communication...(in a relationship) things can get sour. I thought its was impossible...but it kinda hit you unknowingly.

I was happy once. But happiness did come with a price. And I was tested. The phase I went through came unknowingly and unexpected. Within weeks, the effects were unimaginable. I stumbled and paid a dear price for it.

For months HE tested my sincerity...and only he knows the answer. It does not matter now, things happen and life has to move on. Even those you hold dear too might slip away un knowingly. Aziz M Osman is now a single. A father of 5 children....and an ex wife who is attatched to someone else. They were a happy couple for 15 years. It just crumbled one day. How tragic that is. My idea of marriage and this idea of love is somehow questioned. Im looking for something solid, something that can bring me to my last breath.

To you I surrender my self....may you bless me with the richness of life."

- unknown